Slump

It has been a rough couple of fucking weeks.

Last Monday, I ran for president of my sorority. I lost in the equivalent of the primaries. I also endured a particularly rough hour of therapy, where things from my past that I didn't particularly want to revisit were brought up.
Last Tuesday, I was flown halfway across the country to interview for a prestigious position, was asked two questions during the hour-long panel interview, and left with the feeling that they didn't get to know anything about me at all. They told us we would know results on Thursday.
Last Thursday, I was so anxious about the potential of finding out about the job that I completely fucked up a technical interview with a different company. I also couldn't focus at work, and watched our football team lose. I also didn't hear back from the job.
On Friday, after several hours of waiting, I found out that I didn't get the job, but miraculously got a second round interview for the company with whom I screwed up the Thursday interview with. A small glimmer of hope in an otherwise dull situation.
The weekend was a small reprieve, then came this week.
On Monday, I found out I had to re-do large chunks of paperwork in order to get reimbursed. Not fun. I also had a (somewhat) better second round technical.
On Tuesday, I faced the crippling realization that I had to clean my room desperately.
On Wednesday, I ran for president of the PanHellenic Council of my University and lost that as well. The reason? PHC bylaws state that there can only be two members of each chapter on the council, and two members of my chapter were incumbents running for relatively unpopular positions.

Twice in two weeks, I've felt like my leadership abilities were completely discarded. Twice in two weeks, I've lost an opportunity to make a lasting change in my community. Twice in two weeks, I felt like the organization and the community that I have poured countless hours of my life into has not trusted me, heard me, or considered me worthy of their support.

It's been a whirlwind of about ten days, and it's been an incredibly hard one. I don't understand how so many people can tell me, to my face, that I would be amazing in positions of leadership and then have things like this happen. I don't know what I'm missing- I'm a very hardworking and dedicated person, and I have endless devotion to the organizations I deem important to me.

I'm confused, I'm hurt, and I'm discouraged. I do not feel like I'm getting the opportunity to live up to the incredible potential I have, and that's disheartening.